Did a lot of reflections today. Decided that I should not run away from my work anymore and face the fact that I have to work very hard now in order to improve in time for my exams. Got inspired by one of the characters in the anime, which incidentally made me weep a lot although it wasn’t meant to be a tragic comedy. Learnt a lot from it and really made me more determined to do my best for my own trials. I officially declare that from today onwards I shall give 100% focus to my studies and stop watching my Naruto series, among other worldly desires and distractions. May my brain, perserverance, determination, and focus pull me through this critical crisis. I shall console myself that another second I invest in my studies will equate to another second I earn to watch my Naruto...…after my A levels. Quoting Ying Qin, my very encouraging AJ friend, “I want, I can, I will!” I want to achieve my aims and I hope all my treasured friends achieve all of theirs just as well. Heart and Soul!!!*
P.S: Sorry Canoeists, I JUST had to borrow that line.
Haiz... So sick of going back to school after the 5-day break which seemed more like 1...Esp when u know u havent really done any productive work during the vacations. *Guilty conscience guilty conscience* But today's quite kind to me la...Thank goodness today's a short day. Decided to study in the library wif Edwin...Now taking a breather from my books. Heh..that swaku fella. So fascinated wif the radiation detector on my handphone just because it flashes many different colours. Sad case man. And i just read XW's tag...lolx.. reminded me of the absolutely obscene scene of the mandrills fucking. Yuck!! Holy Cow. What is the world coming to?! [XW must be so damned turned on after i told her that!:p] Oops Mrs Lim came to spotcheck on me. i'd better get on wif my work now. Hmm...think i'll be studying in the library more often. Managed to do quite abit of work! And btw, the jap anime Naruto is the best!! Muackz Sasuke!!
Today’s Senior Farewell. My official retirement ceremony. Happy as I was to be totally free of choir, I also felt it came all too sudden somehow. Heh…Im starting to miss all the stuff we do during choir aldy. Was practically talking, fidgeting, monkeying arnd all too much during choir practices. And I’d laugh at anything at every chance I get. Guess I really tickled my altos a lot eh?:p hah..cant believe im 18 sometimes:p Wat’s choir without some fun anyway? Got along pretty well wif many ppl too. But the highlight of it all was always AFTER the choir, ironically=p All those times we had to walk out of the main gate after those very very late choir practices. I’d sing out really loud wif Xw and Hs under the peaceful night sky, laugh out really loud all the time, and talk about practically everything la…and heh.. the guys always had to wait for us while we lag behind:p…But today’s the last time we’re gonna do it though… Its an appropriate ending to the farewell I guess? To me it kinda symbolized the end of choir for me. Njchoir that is. Like leaving everything behind and moving on to new things, new challenges, (new choir maybe?). Like the closure of a chapter of my life and the opening of the next. *deep thought*
Sing your way home,
At the dusk of the day.
Sing your way home,
Drive the shadows away.
Smile everyone, in whatever you do,
It will brighten your road,
It will lighten your load,
If you sing your way home
I love you, choir.
PS: A really big 'thank you' to Derrick Sum Jia Hui for helping me with my blog. Deeply grateful. He rawks big time!
PPS: it's DEREK Sum Jiahui, not derrick sum jia hui. Sorry for the blunder! lolx~
today, or rather yday has been a really fiery day for me:x Well there was half day( it was my usual time of release from the grey shit as a matter of fact.), i decided to return home to take a Zzzz to recover my BOS deficit.(Read: Budget of Sleep deficit.haha...econs:p) but as it turned out o1 of the defiant thick-skinned kids was making life difficult for my mum again. Made e poor lady nag at him 4 half an hr just to get him to bathe?come on. wat shit. and he was lying on my sofa! tt filthy animal. Cldnt take wat i saw, so trembling wif anger,fatigue, cough n flu, i gave it to him. Now, i know i i aint exactly e sweetest-natured person on earth..but wat i didnt know was i went SO SO FIERY, i swore i saw him jump out of his skin-----i made him fly to e bathrm...and the others stare in awe.[Evaluatn: JY's 1 min boom=30mins of nagging.] Damned i was so overwhelmed. Nv have i been so angry 4 a long time. And Mind u, i was nursing a sore throat n voice-loss!! the break-down pt was when my mum came into the rm shortly after n said a simple "thank u". My heart really ached for her. She loves kids more than anything else, and is most patient wif them. but this one was THE limit. there was so much atrocities he was capable of at a TENder age of 7. they alwaz say 'once bitten twice shy.' but not for this bloody bugger. refused to do his work. I gave it to him again. This time, it was enuff 2 make this tough bloke cry n call up his parents 2 complain. his mum calld to say she was getting him out. Well.. im really worried i just ruined my mum's ambition to set up a childcare-cum-tuition ctr...but at least i got rid of her burden. And btw, she's glad he's getting out.
Lessons to take away: Take care and hava nice day.
Hmm...My 1st entry here...had a really slack day.Started on my phy prelim paper this morning and im still on it:x watched tv though.today's the last episode of The Country Spirit on Channel U. Cried buckets. but it's a happy ending though!:p Gonna rent tapes to watch it again. haha jialat...gonna burn thru the night today man:p plenty of work to finish. And my Dad just came home from his company's chalet. Drunk from the excessive intake of the red wine he took becoz it's freeflow. alamak tt cheapskate. Ended up puking outside the lift landing. 1st there was projectile motion, then there was freeflow, followed by spurting all over the place n on poor me who was holding on to him. Hmm...realised the fact tt wat goes(or rather, flows) in, must come out!haha.. Tt's also when i knew it was red wine:p Well, can only say tt i handled the situatn well=) i didnt freak out 4 once!
Been feeling kinda empty since SYF choral fest ended. My last choir assignment of sorts. really dunno if id still con't choral singing in future.(haha..guess tt's where my time went today---daydreaming again:p *winks*) all this while i've been kinda fed up wif choir pract but after the syf ended i feel like i've lost some purpose or smtg. hmm... Maybe xw's rite. i wont be able to run away from singing. havta admit i really luRVe choir. the ups and downs i had for e past 5-and-a-half yrs were probably the best part of my life, and will be one of the best in my whole life i guess. the lovely songs, the joys n pains of being an SL, screwing up fund-raising projects, solo-singing, the impt 'voice-break' tt got me into alto, painful choir practs,the syf finals' surprise, Genting trip, nuenue, cantab, to the SYF choral fest... All these will stay wif me till i get senile i guess!;p
Well, gotta con't wif my phy now:x guess i'll end off my premier entry wif a relevant song. Here goes:
Those were the days my friend
i thought they'd never end
for we would dance
forever and a day.
We'd spend the lives we chose
we'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
tata!