Now I FINALLY know what the morning rush is really like. Had to go for a one-off flyer job on Thurs. Ran along several doors of the train before i found a spot to slip in. Thank goodness. Inside, i barely had breathing space. It was that packed. In the 25mins inside, i was either busy smelling the hair of the woman, 3mm from my face; or breathing down the neck, literally. I even had to say 'excuse me' for the guy beside me to shove off so i cld raise my hand to pick up a phone call.
I knew flyer jobs are real bad even b4 i agreed to go for it, but i went anyway...just for the sake of knowing how truly sucky it really is. It proved my point. Like totally! At the end of the 4hrs, i gained quite alot from this experience: money, wisdom, thick skin......not to mention muscle aches from carrying 200-odd flyers and a pimple from the sweat n oil tt practically gushed down my face. We didnt finish giving them out, of coz. There was a total of 2000 assigned to us. Serena came out with a brilliant idea to stash them into each letterbox we went past, but of coz we kept some so tt it looked more believable to the organisers.Heehee...damned smart, that girl.
WEnt to NUS for a campus tour tt the gen-acts club organised for freshmen. WOW. The bidding system they have there is really mind-boggling manx... It seems like u practically gotta compete all the time for the modules tt you want and tt suited your time. This whole idea is intimidating if you ask me.
After i left i decided to go PS to pay Edwin a visit. It was his bday a couple of days ago n i thot i shld do smthg for him. Went to Barang(x2)...with him showing me arnd of coz. haha! I was so scared his boss wld catch him slacking all the time:p That guy knows his stuff really well la! Impressed sia, im awed. After tt went to get him a cake and card then celebrated his bday. Belated one, no doubt...but he was happy abt it, so i guess it doesnt matter eh?*grinz*
IT's depressing waking up to an empty house in the morning. There'll be this sickening, sinking feeling inside upon realising no one's at home again...but i guess it beats waking up to find tuition kids loitering arnd my house and trying to peep at me in my room while im sleeping like a log.(i dont know why the perversion, but they really enjoy doing that.)
Anyways, last night i've been doing quite abit of soul-searching, and i realised that i've changed quite abit. I lack enthusiasm(that i used to have) in the things that i do, more self-centred, mean, lazy, spendthrift, more emotional than ever, don't like to talk much (unless there's a valid reason to), have serious AP and give people the 'qian bian' look all the time. And these days i just want to isolate myself from everything arnd me. I dont even feel like going out anymore. In short, i've become that someone that i never wanted to become,without even knowing why. Enlightenment pls?
No words can describe the relief i feel knowing that my sis is recovering steadily from her surgery. It all started on Thurs, while i was out having a big feast, my poor sis suffered food poisoning after drinking some contaminated water at my aunt's place. Then on Fri, she was down with a fever. I was concerned, but not overly worried coz i thought it was just the common stomach flu tt many ppl are sufffering from right now. It was only last night, after the 2nd visit to the clinic, did the doctor suspect that something was very wrong and referred her to the A&E at KK. At 3am in the morning, the hospital called my folks up to say it was a confirmed appendicitis case and she had to be operated on asap. Mum called back at 5am to break the news. To say i was stunned and worried was a grossly-understated understatement. I cldnt get back to slp after tt. I kept thinking it was a very stern wake-up call from the gods, to all of us that we were grossly neglecting my sis. She's been a very sensible girl ( and im ashamed to say, even more so than i am), an unexpected gift from above and we have all taken her for granted. I, in particular, am more guilty of that than anyone else in the family. I've been a total ass towards her. Cldn't help crying when i thought about the pain and guilt that my mum wld feel. It was definitely gonna be a gazillion times more terrible than my lot, im sure.
I was right. Mum's eyes were swollen and puffy...and along our way to the hospital, my mum told my bro and i exactly the same things that were running through my head. My mum's sentiments echoed mine perfectly, and hearing that made me squirm even more. Thankfully she's a very strong, very brave girl; she constantly reassured my parents n the nurses n doctors that she didnt feel any pain, which in fact were killing her. And she went through the operation all by herself---all because she didnt want my parents to worry. That's how noble my little sis is. Im extremely proud of her (even the doctors cldnt resist giving her a cert to commend her for her bravery), though it made me despise myself all the more.
This little sis of mine's gonna get the best treatment from me---this i swear.
WEnt to luncheon with W.K, an 'adopted brother' of mine, on Thurs. Created several guffaws---something which is very usual for yours truly, which i gotta admit:p SUper paiseh...but yeah...what's new?haha... Later on he accompanied me to shop for a little while, which was a 1st coz i never quite allowed guys to shop with me. For fear that i'd bore him to death waiting for me to ponder over my potential purchases. It's a No-No esp if tt guy means smthg to me...but of coz when im attached it'd be another story altogether, lah. Anyways, what i noticed while i was shopping was that he automatically held my handbag, and book for me...which i thought was pretty chivalrous, and kinda put some of my guy friends to shame. Esp when he hasnt dated b4. Hah! And to think i always chastised him for having zero EQ and near zero IQ...
But that's not to say that all of the guy friends i have CMI...some of them can be really sweet as well. Once i went out with one of my guy friends for dinner, he helped me hide my handbag so i didnt have to go arnd with it. Yup, others may laugh at me for noticing silly little things like that...but to me, that just shows how thoughtful that person is, and im impressed by that! (So to that friend, if i hadn't said so tt day, i'll say it here now: U're the man!) Thoughtful people are hard to find these days.
oh...btw, must say a big 'Thank you' to hc for helping me lots in Bintan once again! U're...another man!haha
oh oh...and just in case others think i appreciate only the thoughtful acts of the guys, rest assured that i still TRULY BELIEVE that the ladies still RULE in this field! lolx...
Phew...I passed my final driving assessment today! Today really freaked me out, coz i failed the 30-pt assessment tt i had on Mon. At SSDC, trainees gotta pass their final driving assessment before they're allowed to even BOOK their practical test dates. Failed on Mon with 34pt...i needed to keep under 30 to pass. But luckily the instructor was merciful enough to close both eyes n under-reported it. So i guess i shld be really grateful n stop complaining abt him. He was very kind aldy...i was reallly lousy tt day. Don't know what was wrong with me...wldnt suck so much under normal circumstances. Imagine the pain i felt when i found out after tt lesson i wld be getting that SAME instructor again today...
Anyways, i was SUPER careful today. Carefully avoided those mistakes tt he was picking on on Mon. (still can't remember when did i forget to check my blindspot...kenna 2pts for it. I swear i checked it at every opportunity. Hmm..) Cut down my mistakes but of coz i slipped at a few occasions too... Like my vertical parking. Woah..tt one i agree i sucked big time man! Then i oso missed a traffic light change. Wth.
Thought i had no chance at passing...gg by the frequency with which he wrote stuff on my scoresheet. Was prepared to have to book more sessions to redo my stuff already...until he said i cld book my test date. The 'hum-bao' (Canto for cry-baby) in me started acting up manx...i tend to cry when im immensely relieved. And my legs go wobbly too. Hhahaha...but im glad everything's in place! There's still hope i'll get my license before my PDL expires! Good luck to me:)
Chill-out Tuesday... Watched Magadascar today. I think it's being overrated, lah. I mean, im the Queen of lame jokes, AND the President of the Unofficial Lamers' Club, and yet i didnt find the jokes exactly FAR-nie... WEll at least i caught some of the jokes tt others didnt catch...(and by others i mean the kids arnd me n their parents:x) It wasnt anywhere near Shrek, i personally feel. C'mon...i DEFINITELY prefer the Mr n Mrs Smith i caught with Sr n the guys on Sunday! It didnt deserve the lower ratings it got compared to Magadascar. After tt went to PS to meet Xw for dinner at Cartel. Havent seen this dear nue for awhile le.. A REALLY fulfilling dinner we had. Was in danger of bursting though...:p Walked to Acid Bar to see if we cld catch the real good band tt XiaoWei heard there. I had a Lychee Martini---reco-ed by xw. Pretty good...quite liked it. Found Martini a tad too strong for me, but i finished it anyway. SAid it was gd, didnt i?haha.. The chilli chips were good too. Though the band wasnt quite as gd as the one xw heard, i found the feel tt the band tonight gave was pretty alright. Gave the bar the ambience it needed, i felt. Good chill-out time i had, however short a time it was. I cant keep Mummy Ho at home waiting for me can i? Im gg back another day:)
Epilogue: Went back and had another round of dinner 'coz they left quite abit for me---like i told them to this afternoon.(Yeah I know i brought it upon myself for over-estimating my stomach power.) Piled back the kilos i shed in the 5 days tt i didnt eat. I really nearly threw up...and i mean it.
Current Aim: Shrink the spare tire, and inflate the balloons. hahahahahahaha...
Finally saw a doctor today. Been having a fever for the past 2 days and it's killing me... Cldn't sleep well at night. So basically, after taking the medicine, I became a living, hibernating dragon. Dragon coz i feel like im breathing out steam all the time...to the extent tt i think if i put a pail of kerosene in front of me it'll just catch fire or something. But of course that's an exaggerated description:p And my nose is blocked. So yup...im a living, hibernating dragon which sounds like Donald Duck.
AArrrggghh!! I'm ill! Must be some kinda retribution for what i did i guess... Down with fever n runny nose..on top of feeling giddy all the time. Supposed to go to XW's hse to meet my whole gang today but drats...this morning was feeling so damned weak all over---cldn't even walk properly. Worse still, i had diarrhoea shortly after waking up---which was weird coz i practically didnt eat anything the day before. Thought i was gonna faint anytime. SighZ...to think i was looking forward to it:x Miss them sia... Hope this tides over soon...i ain't like feeling so weak n helpless all the time!!!
Shucks...im in deep shit. And it's my fault. LAst Wed i barked excessively at one of my tuition kid. He was just giving answers without thinking...and i lost my cool. It really wasn't his day la...i had just come back from my Theory Trial Test and was quite tired. Wanted to cancel tuition but i had no choice he was aldy at my house when i came home---bo pian. Struggling to stay awake and concentrate on teaching but difficult la... And to top it off i had diarrhoea during the lesson. So was MIA for a while. LAter on my fed-up-ness just escalated and he kenna. Cried to his mum and she just called up to stop tuition. YUp... pretty scared...but im sick so my responses were pretty much numbed. Im sure my mum wld give me a shelling when she returns later on. Gotta work harder on controlling my temper manx.