its been more than 72 hrs since i parked my head in my books and started my rigorous mugging regime. im getting delirious, highly unhappy, and im rotting away as the books suck the life out of me.
And im sure it would have gotten even worse if not for the crazy taxi game my brother secretly implanted into the com. Thank goodness for sneaky brothers.
But then, considering that i still have 14 frigging days to go before i see the clear blue sky again, i now see the following few options open to me as i decide whether to continue rotting:
And considering that options 1 and 3 are highly irrational (while im still sane), i guess i can only......*sigh*......continue to mugg. So if u happen to see a shrivelled, rotten twig on one of the seats in the exam hall, please do not throw it away thinking that it got in by accident.
Coz that rotten twig might just be me.
Now now, girls... quit drooling and clean up the floor!
And ppl were casting weird glances at me coz i was hugging the magazine and smiling all the way home. haha...
I really have no idea since when i became such a Goong junkie, but i guess my fascination with fairytales hasn't really worn off after all this while...pretty Victorian-style evening gowns, tiaras, handsome princes and all. I just hope i wont zou huo ru mo!
But anyways, it cheered me up after a whole day of mugging Soci.
I can die happy now:D
heh. today must be my lucky day...coz i got to sit with one of my eye-candies during lecture! *happiness*
For those in the know, he takes the 3 psych lects tt im taking this sem and attends one of my tutorials. And just 2 days ago, one of the girls in my tut asked if both o us were a couple coz we always sit next to each other. AHAH.
But dont get me wrong, i didnt do that on purpose. it's simply coz im always late and there's only one seat left k. Can't blame me. It's FATE. *um chiooooooo*
Anws, that led me to realise the beauty...no, handsomeness of eye-candies instead of a boyfriend as i've mentioned to Ling. Several reasons why:
1) U can have more than 1.
2) U can share him/them with your best gal pals.
3) U can have him as an eye-candy even if he has a gf.
4) U can have him as an eye-candy even if YOU have a bf, coz u know u will nv like him anw. And he doesnt have to like u!
(correction: ur eye-candy can like u. All the better if so coz u'll have more reasons to stare at him, and nobody loses! But sadly, there's a very valid reason why they're called 'eye candies' and not 'heart candy', 'floss candy' or whatever -- coz u can only SEE, cannot touch.)
5) Last but not the least, u just need a fast, short glimpse at him to get that instant energy boost after a loong, tiring day. U'll never need chicken essence again.
(*Disclaimer: girls/guys with bf/gf shld still seek clearance fr ur other halves first before u do anything stupid. Even I myself wldnt do that if i do get attached in future. I SHALL NOT be held responsible if u get into deep shit coz o this stupid blogpost:p)
oh and just yday, i tasted the best white chocolates - Marks and Spencer's Extremely Chocolatey White Rounds. Shall post a pic of it later. haha...
recently i realised tt im not really not as giving as i want to be. At least not the kind of person who've done alot of things for other people...unless u're part of my family.
But before anyone thinks im some heartless fool who doesnt treasure her friends one bit, dont get me wrong. I've done stuff, and will definitely continue to do so, for my friends whom i hold dear, esp for my long-time friends who've given me lots of love before. I've never forgotten all that u've done for me. I love y'all. Lots.
However, i aint like Jean Gray; i cant read your minds. And coupled with all that academic rubbish n stress i receive by the truckloads these days, i probably grew less sensitive, more lazy, may not have noticed when u're unhappy, and dropped u less boliao 'i-just-dropped-by-to-say-hi' msgs than usual. For that, im really, truly sorry.
But because of that, i need u all the more to trust me enough to TELL ME when u need a listening ear, or even just to entertain u abit. I cant promise u much, but i'll make the effort to give what i can afford within my means.
To my long-er time friends, im so sorry to have turned u down for several meet-ups (in the name of mid-term essays). Or if i've never had the initiative to send 'how-r-u-now?' msgs to u. And tho i may have forgotten to say hi when i see u online on msn, that doesnt mean i dont miss u guys. I'll meet up with y'all, i promise.
but pls pester me abit...cuz im getting old (my lack o sleep doesnt help), n my memory's failing me already:p Once again, luv ya, guys!
"...for all the love that i can bring, i always needed something..." - I Need You by LeAnn Rimes
(ps: i sang that song for my jc talenttime and subsequently got booted out in the first rnd coz i was too nervous. hahaha! But it was Xiaowei who got me to at least try, and handed in my form for me!:D)