Today I've just proven myself to be the airhead tt i think i have become. This boy in my class had leg cramps after one of the girls kicked him. Quite terrible. His leg was slightly twisted and his muscles were all stiff n hard. Totally clueless as to how to help him coz i know nilch about 1st-aid. Manx! What i do when i have cramps at night when im in bed is to just to stay still, massage abit n wait for it to go la! So as like other sticky situations like this, i panicked and lost my brain again. SO i spent the next 15mins just trying to calm him down n help massage him abit.(WEll actually i think i made it more painful for him. He got more flustered instead. WHy am i not surprised?lolx) Since it was a sec 1 class and no 1st-aiders in sight, i ran back to staffrm to get help but i didnt know who to appproach. His pain subsided quite abit by the time i got back, albeit without help. Thank my lucky stars for that! But later on after tt lesson it then occurred to me i could have asked a 1st-aider next door to help me instead of me running arnd to look for help! Total airhead i am:x
Sunday
Met with Gen, Jane n Han Yi for dinner coz Jane's bday was on Mon n Gen's bday's on Wed. Supposed to be at Wenyou's commisioning though:x Didnt regret it though...Dinner was good! Had 2 plates of mushroon-cheese-ham crepes, chicken leg, pizza, mashed potato n rosti. Haha...Nearly burst manx. After dinner we shopped at Future State. MANX.... i actually had the guts to splurge $50 on this short wavy pink satin skirt just coz i liked it! Considering the fact tt i usually buy clothes tt are more practical n for all seasons n occasions, that is. That sweet little thing is obviously not for school manx...more like for clubbing, which i had sworn off some time ago. But Still, i guess i really like it! (although the thought of it being an impulsive buy kinda bugs me:p)
Celebrated sr's verrrryy belated bday today. After tt i got lost on my way home coz i overshot my stop! haha...cant believe it. Was too engrossed watching the tv screen on the bus la! But what i cant believe is not because i overshot, but more becoz i actually have missed my stop before n thus i shld have known how to get back home! Spent half an hour walking along streets of terrace houses which looked the same to me. hahha... Fortunately this kind old lady whom i approached helped me walk out of tt Senette Estate maze. Grinz..Had to lie tt i was visiting my friends for the 1st time to save my paper-thin skin though...
Today I really had a bad day. Was so, so tired and classes were so, so exhaustive. Didn’t help that my last lesson was a double-period lesson. For every instruction I gave, I had to repeat it so many times just to get the message across. Started to feel very breathless already---was in fact panting mildly in the middle of lesson. The noise was way too much for me to bear. Towards the end of lesson, there were still so many things that were undone…I just snapped. The next thing I knew, I slammed my mic off and screamed at the class. The whole class fell into pin-drop silence. The next door classes all heard me. Things were looking very ugly. It got to a point where I was so close to tears already. Quickly dismissed the class and stormed off to the toilet to wash up coz it is absolute taboo to cry in front of students. When I got back was surprised they were still there. Apparently they didn’t dare to leave the class ‘coz it was a whole 10mins before class was supposed to end. I was still mad, but was calmer now. Made them do reflections on their journals for the weekend. Dismissed them once again, then stoned at my stuff. I couldn’t think. The only consolation is tt at least now they know where the limit is.
The bad mood cont’d at home as well. Got so pissed at my bro for lending out the PS2 despite knowing tt im down and needed something to cheer me up. His EQ is really nilch!:x Oh well…i think its just tt everything’s just getting to me---the tight marking deadlines, the tuition, the lack of sleep etc.
Hope everything will get better soon.
This has been a pretty tiring week for me..now i know how tiring it was for my teachers back at Cedar n NJ when they had to mark so many classes' books and all within a dateline. And the books are so freaking heavy! I bet i'll be more muscular than the guys in NS from all that carrying of books to and fro home. Think i oughta sleep early in future...or at least get earlier gradually. Mum seems pretty xin tong seeing me slog like this. Just like how she felt when my bro was bullied at work at the restaurant he worked in earlier on. What's more with the tuitions that i've been giving right after i come home. Feeling damn guilty tt i've been dozing off sometimes during my lessons. Wish i were mentally stronger. Haha..and i cant believe it. It's only been the 2nd week at school and i picked my 'fav' students aldy. Don't think i should be picking favourites, but i like my normal acad classes more than i do for the express. These guys are more mischievous, and freakingly noisy, but they certainly know how to brighten up my day with their antics;) And they're surprisingly sweet too. A few boys whom i keep picking on in class would actually offer to help me carry my books back to the office after classes. Aww manx...they're my angels in disguise:) Someone better get me back to sitting on that fence!
Yay!!! I passed my BTT!! Ooh-la-la~
It was so tiring today. My fault actually...slept late the night before. Then had to fight with the construction site noises to get across to the kids. Terrible. Im even gg to use mics from tmr onwards. Knocked off late today at 4pm. Then once i reached home weng guan was aldy there. So i got changed and started teaching again. Was so lethargic it spread to the poor boy as well. Feel so bad for killing off his interest in studying today manx... Endured with it and only ended at 7. When my Ma told me she knew how tired i am i just started tearing. It's such a bittersweet feeling to have someone understand what u're gg through. LOve her for tt. I had to take pei pa gou even, coz my throat was hurting alot from the constant talking and shouting today. Then went off to cry in my bed. Wished i had someone's shoulders to cry onto, someone to comfort me then. But i guess i've gotta get used to the workload if i want the $$ ba.
Took my Basic Theory Test today. Shld get 48 out of 50... if not full marks. I sure hope to pass and start taking practical lessons!
today i finally got the taste of handling a technical class. All my sec1 kids are having camp so i had the WHOLE DAY FREE!!! Yeah baby! I was given classes to relieve though. So it happened that the 2nd lesson was DE class. It was their IT lesson. When i reached i peeped in n saw a teacher aldy teaching in there so i thought that teacher only needed me later in the lesson---so i waited outside...until 20mins later. i decided to ask her if she needed my services before i slacked my day away in the staffrm. Surprisingly she told me to stay n help maintain order. Later on i found out that they needed 2 teachers for lessons. I cld see why. The guys were all rowdy; some monkeying arnd, the others were just cursing the teacher non-stop---even as she was teaching. Like she wasnt there at all. The girls were pretty much the ones who were keen to learn. The difference between tech classes and normal/express classes is that while express ppl are mindful of their 'face', and thus refrain from embarrassing themselves; the tech class simply cant care less. Another guy TA who was present wanted to bash them up even. They were really THAT disrespectful. But not all tech classes r like that though.. The TA told us that the other class were angels...so cant condemn all of them as this bad.
Hahaa...on a lighter note, i created another guffaw in school today:p I was waiting for my 1st relief class outside their rm...then one of my sec2 CME classes came by. So they were all talking to me, then this guy greeted me. And i repeated what he said back to him! Haha...all of us were laughing out loud...until their teacher came n stared at me as he walked by:x So Paiseh... my skin is really thick, boy!
It's my 3rd day teaching at sch after tt surprise offer of job on Mon. CAnt say everything's been rosy n all, but i count my blessings tt i at least have a job though:p Pretty thankful! Had been hired to relief teach Eng to a few Sec 1 classes, as well as CME lessons for some other upper sec classes. Haha...find it rather amusing. How can morals be taught?! eg. "We have to be honest people. True or false?" ---like they have a choice. Hmm..it's pretty tricky for me coz i've no experience whatsoever, and there's not exactly chance for me to sit in other teachers' lessons. Was given the job out of no choice apparently...the sch wasnt allocated an experienced teacher so they had to resort to relief teachers like me so it's kinda like by pure good luck tt i got the job. Students r not exactly angels, the classes are not exactly small at 40(so lotsa shouting to do), and the planning of lessons are quite tricky, and im still pretty uneasy about addressing teachers who are decades older than myself by their names...not to mention i've gotta upkeep my image n rein in the 'siao cha boh' me. Bleah...and not to mention the numerous mature decent office wear i've got to buy or borrow from my mum. i look so old! What's more i only had a pair of open-toed shoes which r 2 yrs old, which started peeling after half the 2nd day of work, and which later developed a 'mouth'---my soles got detached.
Good pay? Think again. A huge portion of it goes into buying the 'teacher wear' itself ok... But it's not without it's pleasant moments tho. I've a few friendly colleagues my age for company, plus i've been given alot of help by the HODs and neighbouring teachers. Another perk was the whole lot of new experiences tt i'd never be able to get from private tuition. I had a cubicle in the staff rm, my own teacher's record bks, teacher-edition textbks, my set of markers, pens n etc --- stuff tt the admin stuff call 'goodie bag':p haha... Of coz there're lotsa other amazing things but i'll mention it another time i guess.
Ha...of coz being the blur blur, clumsy, and slightly retarded person i am, i got myself into some less-than-desirable circumstances. During the induction i stupidly got myself seated in between the P and VP! Woah...how dua pai is tt! But i really had no idea...i cldnt recognise the VP:x My body had never been so stiff n ramrod straight before in my life! And during the meeting i tried to say smthg witty...but it turned out to be colder than the air-con aldy was in the meeting rm. No one laughed. haha... And Im sure there's more gaffaws to come from me and my stupid antics.
And as a parting tribute to my guy friends who will be or are already in NS, i'd like to specially wish them all the best, and hope that everything will turn out fine for them. And hope tt their beloved hair will grow back real soon! Gonna miss them lots.
Bleah... My New Year eve is pretty pathetic i wld say:( Started off with a lesson this morning, then spent the afternoon reading magazines coz cycling plans with jiahui,huishan were off due to the rain:x So i decided to spend a quiet evening with my family instead. But alas, my 4 little cousins had to come over to my hse coz my uncle and aunt were painting their hse. My mum had agreed to babysit them beforehand of coz. The problem was tt my dad actually managed to get a half day off which was very rare considering he has been working OT all this while. Thought my mum wld have the sense to send them back earlier so our family cld have a quiet evening like in previous yrs. Obviously she hadn't tt sense. So well, here i am sitting at home, spending my New Yr eve not in the cosy family manner tt i had been expecting, but in front of the computer screen like nthg is happening. I have always regarded my mum as the ideal mum, but sometimes i cant help but resent her for not being able to give a little more attention to her own family. Heh...but oh well i'll just be content with what i have for now! At least i now know what kind of a person i wanna be for my own family in future!:p I aint gonna neglect my family! Never never! Happy New Year to all i know!