This is my favourite MTV! Although the dancers arent exactly in sync with each other at times, the choreography is very zai!!! For the first time in my life, i'd say Jay Chou rawks. (tho i still think he shld have let Fei Yu Qing sing the whole of his song Qian Li Zhi Wai.)
sometimes, it's amazing how things can choose not to turn out the way u've wanted it to be huh?
Work's starting to pile up already, im feeling increasingly anxious abt all the readings i havent read becoz i dont read fast enough. And i hope that i will continue to be this conscious abt my current state of mind so that i wont eventually fall onto the verge of a mental breakdown later on. Im really such a weak person, aren't i?
Lately, certain things which are turning out wrongly are taking a toll on me. Im starting to feel very inadequate and pretty much useless with all the people coming up to me and telling me what i shld be doing which i havent. And to be honest, it really didnt strike me that those things i havent done were an issue! Gee...i guess i really am very myopic huh? And im not even talking abt my eyesight.
True, while some of these things force me to grow up and out of my comfort zone, i sometimes wonder if i shld have taken up so many responsibilities afterall. Believing that i can overcome obstacles is one matter, but whether im able to do it within my abilities or not is another question that i failed to ask myself when i undertook the duties.
And as Peter Parker's uncle once told him, "With power, comes great responsibilities."
How true. Come to think of it, maybe i aint as powerful as i originally thought; and that's why i shldnt have agreed to 'take up the challenge', so ta speak. I simply wasnt prepared to put in so much more than i was led to believe i needed to. Perhaps i shld start thinking abt putting down some of the responsibilities already. At least that wld stop the damage that i've been causing for so many months, to go on further. Finally, i am convinced that i've made the wrong choice in the beginning.
Heh...where's all those positive vibes when u needed them?
Such a simpleton; such a fool am i.
Gee...i really shld stop wasting time blogging abt the stupidest things, but im gonna blog abt somebody who has a sexy mole on his chin. Somebody barricade my com pls!!!
What happened was, i performed for the sports bazaar at sch this afternn with the same esplanade gang. Nearly didnt perform today coz they provided only 2 mics instead of the 6 that we needed. Anws, im glad we decided to do so afterall coz i got to see a tv personality in sch...in person! (hint: he was famous for being the runner-up in some singing competition on tv) Well, its not like im a tv idol fanatic or smthg, but i just happen to like his voice lah. Just his voice i swear...
OR maybe not.
It's just this aura abt him i think. Apparently his stage charisma doesnt only stay on the stage lah...gg by how charming he looked even when he was just quietly sitting down there to hear us sing....and as well as how this bunch of bimbotic nutcases screamed when they spotted him, n subsequently ran after him. Talk abt fanatics man.
But okay, i think i shld stop gushing abt him before anyone thinks im in love with him or smthg. Coz im not. "-_-
Wanping, my ex-classmate whom i met at Jane's party. Told you the world was small:) My nj classmates at Peiying's party which, very coincidentally, was held at the very same place as Jane's! haha...me and one of my bright ideas. I was a lil restless at the party, so i got them guys do this. 1, 2, 3, 4...high 5!!! They're sooooooooooo cute, esp. jiankai! This one's at marmalade pantry, it's Shao's bday (the sweet lady 2nd from the right) and she gave us all a treat! Tho it was a relatively smaller, quieter affair, it was no less enjoyable, in fact more, coz the company and the ambience was so right. Closure. Im happy:) 
Getting me to do smthg i don't like, that's fine. I'd do it for u coz it only helps to take some load off ur tired shoulders.
but to go to the extent of forcing me to suppress my true sentiments and fake a smile, pretending to love doing the things i don't wanna do, you're pushing it too far.
Sometimes i wonder if ah meng smiles n dines with visitors to the zoo just coz she feels indebted to her keepers' kindness. And i wonder if she actually feels terrible inside but is unable to express it properly. No doubt, ah meng has a friendly, sociable n even more so, an obliging nature. Exploiting her personality helps to bring in the tourism dollar to fund the zoo, and ultimately ah meng n her clan of o.utans also benefit from it coz they'd be getting even better food coz of the funding. But does that mean that it is right for u to make her do all sorts of funny things that o.utans dont NORMALLY IN THEIR NATURE, do? And even if she agrees to, does that mean u shld continue to exploit her and make her entertain even more visitors?!
Alright, enough abt primates already. Let's talk a lil bit abt values.
Everyone's brought up with their own unique set of values, which influence their behaviour n it more or less follows them for the rest of their lives. Mine happens to be some of the traditional ones like li, yi, lian, chi - inculcated by my family n by very convincing hao gong ming lessons in pri sch. And my oh my, u wldnt believe how much pride i have in those values. I credit my grandma, mum, dad n teachers who taught me proper manners since young, so i know what's the behaviour expected of me in different social situations n i've got strong moral values, which i think will only do me good. That's why im grateful to the above-mentioned for imparting the values to me. Cuz at least i know that if ever somebody gets struck by lightning for being unfilial or promiscuous, it wont be me.
BUUUUTTT if at anytime u've got an issue with my values and dont agree with the way i think things shld be, then that's too bad. Coz i aint gonna compromise em for anyone, anyday.
If i think tt smthg u do is rude, i'd be a nice friend and tell u what i think so u dont get hate msgs in ur inbox. But i don't n won't expect you to conform to my value system. If u don't like wad i say, dont want to do it, then don't. It's perfectly fine by me. But u aint got no helluva right to ridicule MY values n expect me to do things according to yours!!!
Man...i feel sorry for you, really, i do.
Gigged at Esplanade yday! And just like what James said on Sat, being able to perform at the amphitheatre by the waterfront was pretty much a dream come true, coz unlike the usual case of me watching others perform, i was performing for other people instead. My artist pass! Soooo happy to have it coz it reminds me of my singing in the syf finals at Esplanade with nj - pretty stage, backstage, dressing rooms and all. (except that im performing in the outdoor amphi now) And more imptly, it says im an ARTIST! *beaming with pride* Me clowning arnd with the camera in the dressing room. haha dunno why, i just feel like a star whenever i see the mirror-with-the-lights. Felt super excited somehow:p Posing for pics! the very beautiful skyline at the Esplanade. The sunset's absolutely amazing...so romantic! my performing group! (intact) Oops, it's OOPS! Performers' class photo. hahaha Me with lovely Reso babes who came to support! In all, im just glad that what i feared most, turned out to be pretty much ok. I thank my group members to putting up with my snappiness, i thank my seniors for helping us out here n there, and i certainly thank the mic i was holding on to, coz im very sure i wldnt have sounded that gd if the Reso mics were used instead, judging from the difference in the kinds of sound i heard in the respective monitors. Im just happy n thankful lah. Labels: Gigs and such
Pic taken earlier on at Derek's bday party. Suhui, the babe in green, who has gone to the US by the time this post is posted. Shall miss her loads during Reso practs :( Weiling, the other babe we're sending to the US. At the farewell steamboat dinner on Tues. FOOOOODDDDDD!!!!!!!! which turned me into a fat ass overnight :s Look at all that meattttt!!! Edlina n Derek clowning arnd at the dinner table. Poor prawn. Wailun looking extremely gleeful with his food. AS USUAL. Group pic! Labels: Jan 07
And it doesnt help when my pathetic, less-than-one-mth holidays are ending, and all i can do to treasure it is to.................................wake up early in the mornings to practise for a gig on Sunday?? Tmd.
But then again, im just being whiny n childish abt it.
As it is right now, things are still not really steady yet, that's why im dreading it. We're performing tmr evening and we're still wobbly... Im just keeping my fingers n toes crossed. And im wondering if i shld ask Becks, and jh not to come anymore. Coz i just dont wanna let em see/hear me croak onstage. Cross my fingers n toes once again.
these days, not only the internet gets lagggggy, even blogging gets lagged too. There. it was THAT crowded at City Hall on NYE. In fact, i think 'crowded' doesnt even justify what u see in the pic. happier moments at Derek's party earlier on
2007 started out on a pretty bad note for me - i counted down all alone this yr, and my com crashed on the first day of the year. I had plans to usher in the new yr with my jc friends, after Derek's bday celebration, but plans got cancelled. Actually had Plan B too, but even that got screwed because my phone died on me at 11pm, on the 31st Dec 2006. And i dont even want to go into details as to exactly what led to my pathetic state.
I ended up crying at the stroke of 12, trapped amongst a whole lot of people of whom not a single face i recognise. And i went home alone too.
WELL DONE. That's fate for ya, hun.
