I officially end my 2 weeks of mugging up in the mountain caves.
Im out of the caves and back into the sun again!!!
"I can see clearly now the rain is goneeeee..."
yeeeessshhh. I finally finished my Personality paper. Got a slight sneaky feeling that i might have just buanged yet another paper, but that's okay.
Im still very glad it's over!
But seriously, by now, after abt...almost 2 weeks mugging non-stop at my table from before dawn till after midnight, i really feel like tearing up the notes already. Ahhhh...how satisfying would that be:D
Which leads me to think about whether i really should stay another yr for the Honours, since im already complaining so much after only two. What will become of me in the 4th yr? *thinks dried, wrinkled and withered flowers*
Scary.
okay. Im feeling bloated, stressed and sleepy. Which essentially makes me no different from...
a stuffed Xmas turkey fed with sleeping pills.
Experiencing high cortisol levels and it isnt coming down. Not yet...not until my Personality paper on tues. I look through the past yr papers, and i shake my head, feeling hopeless.
And as of now im wondering if i shld slp or con't studying somemore for Stats. Heck, how can u even study for Maths?? So few past yr papers to practise on somemore. Sick of my notes, really. I've lost count of how many times i went through that whole damn pile throughout the sem.
Exam periods totally suuuuuuuuuuckkkk.
i swear i have been trying to study since an hour ago. But for no apparent reason, the words 'jik pa ban' (it means 'one million) kept ringing in my head eversince i woke up from my nap!!
hahah...the weirdest things do come to mind when u're stressed up with ur books.
Let us take a look at the girl's mugging progress so far...
Go...
Going...
Gone.
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And apparently, the habit of slping on the job runs in the family.
And if anyone hasnt realised that i deliberately posed for the pics, u aint sharp enough lah. Stole my bro's phone to take the pictures coz my brains were fried at that time. Pics were quite clear right?
Took the first paper today. Wasn't good:( But i've got my left-handedness to blame if i cant get good results forever - coz left handers have been shown to have an average IQ score which is .5 less than that of right handers, so it really isnt my fault. haa...i wonder why i rmb things which are unlikely exam materials man. (fyi the above nugget came out of my tbk)
moving on... ...
Bad news. Everybody around me is making me believe that im shrinking.
I say it's all due to stress, since i havent been making a conscious effort to abstain from food. Not that i've got any reasons to.
But then again, i do realise that i've been losing my appetite for the past week; feels damn bloated whenever i force myself to eat more. Speaking of which, the stupid dan dan noodles i had for lunch is still in my tummy. Just looking at my dinner makes me wanna throw up now.
Even my favourite honeydew sago dessert hasnt been able to excite me much today=(
I hope poor sleep has got nothing to do with this.
Mum threw up twice after taking her colonoscopy medication, which is meant to prepare her for her scope tmr. I pray hard she'll be fine.
All is not well.
Feeling like kicking a thousand cans today with that swollen right eye of mine, and being caught in that downpour after school. It certainly doesn't rain, but pours.
Random Musings
Rainy days are really a hassle. But ultimately, it's the rain that cleans everything up and bring the fresh air back again.
How nice.
This is an official announcement to all friends out there, that I, Pinkpisces, is now hereby closed for entertainment appointments.
This simply means I shall not be entertaining any requests to go for movies, shopping, ktv and the likes and will be under strict quarantine for the next 22 days. Lunch and dinner dates are not really encouraged, but will be considered on a case-to-case basis.
However, encouraging SMSes are very much welcomed, and i shall lurrve u so if i receive anything of the sort from u. Feel free to vent ur study frustrations and nonsense happenings through SMSes too. They'll be my source of life and laughter during this difficult period.
My exams span from 21st to 28th April. After which, i'll be so done with exams, and shall be extremely happy to meet you in the evenings, should you miss me loads in my total absence. I know you will:p
Aww...of course, i'll have you know that i shall miss you to bits too. Baby, i do (cherish you)!
To all studying friends out there, all the best for your exams! I really look forward to seeing you after our ordeal. It's painful i know, but necessary i guess.
Hang in there, and give it your best shot!
Im starting to believe i had absolutely no idea what i was getting into when i happily (and officially) declared myself a Psych major.
I just finished my i/o psych test, which i studied for the past 2 days with an average of 4hrs o sleep per day. Really hope its worth my tiny sacrifice. Expecting a score of 15 out of 20 - worst case scenario - coz of negative marking. But i think even with this score i'd be one of the lowest in the cohort already, coz my friends gave me this 'huh-u-didnt-answer-3-qns?!' look when i told them.
Not that im too bothered by it at the moment. Feeling nauseous and dizzy now...the coffee i had kept me awake during the test, but proved to be my bane when the caffeine wore on (and is still wearing on) throughout my train ride hm WHERE I WAS SUPPOSED TO SLP. Drats, i was so tired to the extent i clean forgot abt the entrepreneur talk that i promised Ling i'd go - even tho she reminded me just 15 minutes before i hopped onto the bus. im really really sorry, Ling:(
Guess between scoring for my CA tests and prolonging my life, i chose the former. But what would YOU, my friend, choose given my situation?
1) Do what i did. Give up some slp to study a lil more, hopefully get better grades, and live knowing u really tried ur best; or
2) Slp as per normal, smoke your way through the test, and when u dont score well, u live with the guilt of not putting in enough effort.
Somehow i just think its better not living with the guilt, although i get all the more disappointed when my efforts seem to always have negative valence on the satisfaction i get with my grades.
Gee...even my most valient attempts cant keep my eyes open now. Shall end here n leave the Sentosa adventure i had last Sat for another day.
Had surprise company for dinner yesterday!
If you're reading this, im saying a big thankiew to ya!! Think the food tasted better than usual:p