My most promising goal at this moment:
It's angelic-ly pretty, isn't it?=)
Shall work harder at saving up my pocket money so i can buy this for myself by the time i reach my 23rd birthday. I'll call this 'My Dream Sea Globe' fund.
Oh, and if anyone shares my dreamy passion, do check out www.aworldwithin.wordpress.com! I did, and cldnt stop grinning to myself as i scrolled down the pages:)))))))))))
At least that's smthg to make me smile.
Dear me,
Just why can't you be a me that i can be proud of?
Yours,
me
Am feeling so damn stressed abt my upcoming CAs, my fked-up Hons degree (just exactly how many times must i screw up in my lifetime before i see the clear blue sky?) and my future at this point, it probably wont be long before i contemplate finding out just how sharp that blade is on my skin. Not a very novel method, but i figure it'll probably provide me with just enough distraction, so heck.
Think im losing it..so help me if u can. Thanks?
Made 12 people happy today by giving out hello pandas hahaha. ( Very auntie, i know) OH, and i bought a rose for the Mum and made the Dad give it to her coz i was sure he wouldnt have thought of doing anything special. Im glad i did, coz it made her very happy and him, blush-ey. *grins*
So love is not only about receiving, its about giving too:) Im glad i gave away some love today!
Post CNY four-day vacation, i feel like i just woke up from a fluffy, happy, anything-you-wish-for-will-come-true dream only to discover that i've got a nightmare before me and no matter how i slap, spank and pinch myself, i just wont wake up. (Descartes my pal, million thanks for the inspiration)
Sigh.
But CNY was good enough. Fed myself well (i just cldnt stop eating), had fun dressing up (save for that gold chain - tt i wore out of tradition - which didnt match any of my clothes but i cldnt be bothered anyway), finished the premier series of Heroes (fab show, that one) and FINALLY, i had consecutive four days where i could sleep in and didnt have to worry about missing lectures at 10am. Learnt to count my blessings when i have em.
As i write, im abt done printing almost all my readings this sem. Really had no idea what i signed up for. I had my 2nd Memory tutorial today and already, im wondering how on earth to even pass (much less get above a B- grade), when half the time i didnt understand my readings - a stark contrast against the rest of the class (the total enrolment's only 30) who happily rattle away with intelligent questions and answers for the tutor. Oh well, at least i read my readings now. I cant even remember anything i read in my first 3 sems in NUS... and that's if i even read anything in the first place haha.
V Day's coming, and im sitting this one out. Probably going out for a show with Azi, since i've yet to celebrate her bday. Not that i'll continue sitting out the rest of the V-Days in my lifetime tho.
I figured i'll eventually have to get myself a personal roach buster (PRB). I mean, i cant just go on screaming for the Mum, Dad or the Brother to save me from the roaches for the rest of my life, can i.
Xin Nian Kuai Le and Happy Valentine's Day to y'all.
Oh. and i thought i shld put this up as well. The tune of Love Song by Sarah Bareilles has been looping in my zen neon the entire day, and i think im falling in love with the easy-to-listen-to 'dum dum dum, da-dum, da-dum, dum dum dum' rhythm. It makes the song stay in your head for a while. Labels: songs in the headHead under water,
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while.
The breathing gets harder, even I know that.
You made room for me but it’s too soon to see,
If I’m happy in your hands.
I’m unusually hard to hold on to.
Blank stares at blank pages.
No easy way to say this.
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I’m gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
Today.
I learned the hard way,
That they all say things you want to hear.
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you,
And your twisted words, your help just hurts.
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry.
Convinced me to please you.
Made me think that I need this too.
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I’m gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
Promise me you'll leave the light on,
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone.
'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say,
I won't write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this.
Is that why you wanted a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see.
I’m not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I’m not gonna write you to stay.
If your heart is nowhere in it,
I don’t want it for a minute.
Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to,
Write you a love song today.
Today.